20 May

Its been so long i had not came up here to express my feeling . HAHA. Anyways, I'm here now. Lately , I'm busying studying for my exam . But at last i did screw my exam. HAHAHA. So forget about it. Hmm. What else more. I felt like I had so much to say . but it just cant get up into my mind so in a sudden. Okay lets start of from ELECOLDXHOT ! This is my favourite crew ever. I had never seen a crew that had such team work. I love them . they're like totally awesome ! The way they dance ,they enjoy every moment while dance . LOL I swear to god. when I'm 18 i will go to their studio to have some lesson . LOL About LA style And popping. I swear i will do it. HAHHAHA. I don't know what;s wrong wit me . But , nowadays , I keep telling gee gee that i wanted to live wit her when i' in college. I guess I'm just scare of loneliness . I'm lack of love. Sometimes i don;t feel lonely , but when i saw everyone is like holding hands wit their lover, And I'm like so so freaking wish that I'm the freaking one who get holed. :( But sometimes. i love to remain Single. cause i can enjoy the life without anyone. HAHAH as ppl say , flirt them !!HAHAHAH. Anyway, i want to get admired by other ppl. just like how i admired Elecoldxhot. hahhaa. I want to have a fabulous life. ahahaha. I want to be happy for the rest of my life, But everytime something happepend is a step for us to grow up. Its to show that we're growing up. Sometimes i just feel so sick of growing up, i can't go throught drama queens.then suck up totally fuck up. And i found that when a person gone famous. the only thing they get is LC! Haiz. dear god could you please forgive thise bitches. Sometimes i really wish i were a boy. so that i wont go through so many dramas and stories from fuckep up bithces.  In the otherside,i hope that elecoldxhot is friendly , so that i wont hate elecoldxhot. :D its kinda later tho. nites world. Love.

8 may

I'm waiting for the guy to online. but it seems like he seldom online. Onlike also go like har picture ,statues, dont even chat wit me . :(( Stupid , can;t you read my action ? I'm so fucking obvious very in to you . but you just dont know what to do . Act like ntg . uh . what do you still want me to do ? i really can;t do anything already :((

7 may

Exam sucks. Screw exam . hahhah ClamClam ! fuck ! i can't. stupid girls bully ppl because ppl look not really nice. But dint that they they look even ugly then that girl ? haha this is funny ! acting lik a big sister when they are not . Act like a hooligans who just came out from the jungle . Wait ! even a hooligans can think properly then them . Din study moral ! can't forgive. Go to hell weyyy.

4 may

FINALLY ! i've gotta blog ! I wanted to blog last night but , anyways. forget about it. Seriously, I flunk my chinese exam . I'm a chinese but i can't even pass my chinese. i really want to drop it . no matter how hardworks i study I still can';t pass.  watching facial videos. hahah tata ppl. no updates.

May 1

I wish to be like a princess. I want to be a princess in someones heart. I want the person treat me as his one and only princess. Is this gonna happened ? Is there a prince willing to take part of the place ? ever girl hope to have a guy that loves her . so do i . I want a guy calls me His princess, Calls me his girl , his wife, his baby girl, his lover, his half of his life, his everything . I want a guy who treats me as his princess. i want a princess life.

Its been forever, i'm scare to be alone. So please don't leave me alone.

26 April

Should be studying , but i came up here to blog. hahahah.So stupid. I found out something . BOYS are fucked up creatures ! Boys are as cheap as a slut lately. They asked for girls num from a girl/friend. How could this happened ? Girls are enough cheap, i can;t believe that boys are even cheaper then a girl . What WORLD is this ? Cheap ass. better watch your steps weyy.  I might kick you in the face i tell you. Dumpbo!

25April

Hey yo ! What's up ? LOL . I'm kinda getting high now a days .Its cold in my room. but, i'm not going to turn off the air con. cause i like to feel freezing .I know i'm weird.... I've got nothing to say lately , cause nothing much happened on me . I think i should go for another hair cut ? this is too thick ? IDK. Oh whatever.Okay! my mom is yell downstairs for no reason. Actually i should study for a lil. but i'm just too lazy ,  :( FAILED. This is kind of some random blog post . hahaha. get over it . LOL

wheeee, its for next sunday .

OKAY ! seriously , you guys will be like , 'okay , give it a break Cindy , get over it.' after you read this blog post. LOL . I was still planing what to wear for the concert next Sunday . HAHAH ! I'm like crazy shopping for cloths, i wan dresses and bags.Imma shopperholic . I love to shop for things that are fun, cloths, skirts, shorts,cute stuffs. Well, i'm going shoppping again wit my beloved dad. I should get some fun hairbands, and some Accessories. I need to get a tall glass, for me to keep my make up brushes. And some hair products, cause my hair need to get long as fast as it could be . get some facial cotton cause i'm off of them . OH YEA ! and body spray . cause i'm out of those too. I might shop for shoes too if there is time ? I hope so . maybe some decoration for my room ? i'll think about it. but for sure , i'm lack of shoes, i mean, its for shopping or normal wear. i Need to get some of those. I wanted to go FOREVER 21 , i love everything in there. So there must a chance . LOL  I shall upload my collection ? HAHAHA ! WAIT ! it takes time.


 THERE YOU GO :)

 Masks,Glasses,Travel kit,Headbands,Bang,Nail polishes,Accessories

 Perfume,samples of it, Ann Sui,Body Shot .

 Collections of shoes.

THIS IS NOT SHOWING OFF! ITS COLLECTION, IF YOU THINK THAT I AM ? THEN JUST GET OUT OF THIS PAGE. THANK YOU . THIS IS NOT THE PLACE WHERE HATER TO STAY :)

23 April

Its been so long, i've not came up here to write crap . LOL its because I'm lazy and exam is just around the corner . Serioulsy , i'm scare . :(( i dont want to have any exam . I din even get my ass to study a chapter of science, maths, ACCOUNT ! fuckedup weyyy. HOW ? DIE LOR ? ga yao ga yao . I just wan a B for my science .


 you left me alone again . How can i trust you ? NAH , i won't , i won't trust you again. You moved on and so do I ! i moved on too. So let's shut our ass off . :D


Found so many new songs, i feel like singing them . HAHAHA ! I wan to improve my singing skills. I wan to sing like how those singer sings . I want to dance like how they dance . I can't be so left out . :D so break a leg people . Keep on practicing now . I will eat you up . HAHAHAAH <3

I like this song <3

Although this is old . but i still love it <3

Wheee. another love song. 

 AND AND ! its the last thing , i want to get handbags and cute dress that suits my new hair . <3 Wheeee.

i Dont get a damn about those Bitches . I dont fucking care about what they say now . All i wan is confidence . . Well i love myself and so do my Friends, you know who i means, those 5 of 7 or 8 .. I dont know i just love the CTM"s although i'm not one of them but their the only true friends. and my classmates . XOXO

19 april

wheee.. Congrats , I had been single for 4 months . HAHa i enjoys . MR L  MR L . stop asking that question or said something makes me feel so uncomfartable . do i really need to accept you ? you should change you attitude .

HAHAHAHA ! STUPID ME . HEADING TO BED GOOD NIGHT WORLD <3   ILY

Gee Gee Gor

GEE GEE !!! i miss you . :( i've got so much to talk to you , i wan to show you my hair , i think it looks weird on me ? IDK ! please come back . :( no you no life ah !!!!!

17 April

Ain't confidence already . :(  I have a haircut and a new style , but some pl say that it doesn;t look good on me . so far there is only 2 person , but i scare there will be more . Kinda regret , but i think it look good on me , i think i need to give myself more confidence , don;t care what the others say , do as i like , I hope i can do it . Anyway wish me luck ppl,. ILY <3

So Sweet

I love this song .

its so sweet .

see it from 2.04 till the end <3

you'll love it . 

if these kind of romance happened on me .

I Swear , i'll love that guy till death .

15 April

I force myself to bed , you again , you break you promise again. I felt stupid that i actually believed you . Forget about it .

Found a love song . Its mine forever . Good night world. <3

I miss you Gee Gee . 

12 April

I can't sleep , was texting wit MR YL , and he asked me to accept him , I did not answer and i just changed the topic . He's like waiting for me to accept him wit much hope. should i go fr it or what ? Seriously not in the mood today , Everyone change so in a sudden , i can't catch up , i wonder is everyone like this ? they change all the time . They find you when they need you , I've tried so hard to mix myself in , but / i fail , same to the GUY that i LOVED , I always wish to be loved by someone , but it seems like , I'm just putting to much hope. and i get disappointed  all the time , everytime i put hope in it , all i get is just tears , I wish to give up all the time , but i failed . i really failed . Should i just give up or just leave it like this ?  I can't tell anyone how i felt right now , i act nothing in school but when i came back from school , i begin to be EMO . Sleep every afternoon just to stop myself from thinkin , stay back just to stay myself away from the phone. Sometimes i felt so stupid waiting for a guy that might doesn.t likes ma , or he likes me but he doesn.t wan to tell me . I always tell myself that in this world there is much more guy for me to choose but i seems to just fuck myself to him . Seriously what the fuck weyy .   anyway , enough for today . i'll continue tomorrow . Good night world .

Mr XXX

If you love me , can you please tell me that you do ? I'm sick and tired of finding answer by myself , i can't read your mind . I don't know what are you think , i tot that i had already give up ,but after i meet you again , i found that i just can't stop myself for falling for you . Those stupid feeling just came back to me so in a sudden . I can't even stop those feeling . God , please help me . :(    NOT REFERING TO > MY YL

10 April .

Yesterday was tough , so i decited to skip it . I don't want to be Emo :D

LOL. I saw sweet couples everywhere i go . I was so jealous why can't i be like them ?

I WANT  to be like them . but i know sweet thing won't happened in my life . 

This is kinda sad . :(

HAHAHAH 

anyway, i know someday I'm gonna be one for them , as sweet as them <3 

Just pray to god :)

 

I'm young i'm free :)

I'm young and i'm free , stay all night wit our friends . I'll be okay . this is the song that I use it to console myself . mood is getting better and better . You hurt me I hate you ! Well i would like to share this :) TEEHEEE



We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright

Tonight you won’t be by your self-self
Just leave your problems on the shelf-shelf
You won’t wanna be nowhere else-else
So let’s go, so let’s go (we got the club like)

(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) and all the girls sayin’
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) the whole world sayin’
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) yeah, yeah, come on let’s
Get drunk, toast it up, we don’t give a fu—

We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright

Throw our hands in the air
Pretty girls everywhere
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright

(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) alright, alright, alright
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) ah, ah, ah, ah
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) alright, alright, alright
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) ah, ah, ah, ah

We walk the streets like we don’t care-care
Our middle fingers in the air-air
So come and join us if you dare-dare
Yeah let’s go, yeah let’s go (we got the club like)

(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) and all the girls sayin’
Travie Mccoy We'll Be Alright lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/travie-mccoy-well-be-alright-lyrics.html

(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) the whole world sayin’
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) yeah, yeah, come on let’s
Get drunk, toast it up, we don’t give a fu—

We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright

Throw our hands in the air
Pretty girls everywhere
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright

It feels like, ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(It feels good, don’t it?) ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(yo, yo, yeah, d-don’t it?) yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(yeah) We’ll be alright (ahh!)

It feels like, ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(It feels good, don’t it?) ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(yo, yo, yeah, d-don’t it?) yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(yeah) We’ll be alright (uh-huh, ha-ha)

We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright

Throw our hands in the air
(ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Pretty girls everywhere
(ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Got our friends, got the night
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
We’ll be alright

8 April

Really fucked up today . fucking fed up already . i don't wan it anymore . I just wan to lave everything behind right now  . This suck likes shit . I hate you . i really hate you . I cried , for no reason .

4 march

Today seriously suck like nothing . I can't even smile , i just dont know what's up to me . I can't read myself , I've no moody to entertain anyone, Just wants to stay alone and keep myself shut . Anyway i took lyself a picture today , just feeling like putting on make up and take a few picture . but pictures seems like showing out ugly . Failed :( I'll upload one that i think is the best of all pictures . Shhhhh .

3 april

You don't like me right ? ...... I don't feel like blogging anymore , makes no sense .

29 march .

I love him . this is what i can only say . I love him till the max . Shhh. make it soft . LOLOL

The wrong person

Bless the broken road ..

This song had been my love song since I don't know when , but every time i heard this song. It makes me feel better , It's so sweet .


I set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Yes He did

I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

But now I'm just rolling home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

24 25 :) :(

I'm all about him but he's not about me . Opppsss. this is kinda stupid . LOL had a long talk wit my Friend , as so you know its Gee Gee . I told her everything and she introduce me some emo song . Wait a minute why am i so EMO ?? No way , this is so not going to happened on me . He , doesn't like me . HAHAHAHAHAHAH . I knew it , so .... Shut the fuck up , (this is so me) anyway , i talked to her and i told her everything about how i felt and how Sad am I . Yes i know i'm not suppose to be sad or emo , cause this is so so so not me . So i pretend to be happy , that i never care about it at all , I think i've change alot. I've never been so crazy about a *thing* before but this time i failed , I can't believe i did that , anyway i decided to let go everything just likw how i use to say to Gee Gee everytime .LOL . If its yours, it will always be yours , If its not yours, no matter what you do it won;t be yours . so let's trust fade ? Should we ? Wish me luck . <3

22 march

It's a tough day . can be said that I'm in a good moody or can be said that I'm not really in a good mood . I just can't read myself someday , and its totally sucks . Why girls like to make themselves feel cheap ? I really can;t find a reason to explain to myself . Girls today are so so so fucking cheap . they can just sleep wit any guys they wan . WTF . you said kiss on the bed also never mind ,but why do you have to give up your own body , and you said it out by you own fucking mouth ? That's just dog mouth . Yet you still wan to force ppl to apologize ? who the fuck you think you are ? A slut or a whore ? You tot that no one knows you slept wit a guy before so you need to yet like shit in school in front of everyone ? Won;t you feel shame full ? this is so called *dei sei *  Good for you .you wanna argue ? come and find me in class. see who fuck who first ? Its not friends more who wins , its the facts .Do you fucking know what;s the FACTS ? Look through the dictionary . BITCH !

21 march

Hmmmmm.. I don't und why these days i feel like hugging ppl . hahaha I just have no idea. Just feel like hugging anyone ., and it makes me think of Jeffrey , Hahahaha. Wait ! I did not fall him already , just A moment that i suddenly think of him . Its no big deal . How hug gable is he. OMG !! his body . LOL Kinda miss the moment that i hug him . LOL anyways its all pass tense . I'm so not looking back . I'm waiting for my type of guy go apparel, and i'm so gonna accept him . HAHAHAHA . But there's not Cinderella Story in this world , if there is , I'll fucking hope it will happened on me . hahahah. Will it ? Is anyone out there willing to be my prince ? I hope there is . But , STOP DREAMING ! I will not happened,.

20 march :(

This is just too much for me . Fucking too much . I just can't sleep , Can i just bang my head to the wall ? I'm so speechless right now . I can't do anything , just so freaking moody , How can i stop ? Help me please . :'(  The day that i cried for no reason .  this is so unfair , i just wish to live a happy life , And now i end up crying like shit , This is not the ending that i wanted . I wan a happy ending , This ain't happy , I just found myself not smiling much for no reason , This is not me . So not me . you gave me everything that i wanted and now you're taking it back . How can you treat me so unfair ? I Don't wanna go through this again , Once you took it please don;t give me back or  any hope , cause i just can;t handle all this stress ,pressure .. And the worst thing is , I can;t even handle my treas ...

I need to talk to someone !!!! Who is willing to listen whatever shit i say ??? Cant you just fucking stop and listen ? :( I'm so moody . :(

18 MARCH

Practice dancing the whole day . Yes i finally did it . I've stop think about it .. YEAH !!!!! . but ..... *ju hua tai* told me that i'm someone special to him . this kinda make me scare . i just wan to be his friend right now , cause I'm not his type of girl . :((

When i woke up . everything will be back to normal . I promise to stop think , and live my life like how i use to do . Laugh the whole day as hard as i could , I wont let things spoiled my mood. forget the past and fight for what i wan now . I think i loost *ju hua tai * already . He say i change already , Yes sure i've change , cause i'm kinda moody this few days , that way i dont have the mood to talk to him . but i don't wanna tell him , cause i know he will sure ask about what i'm moody for . And i have to explain is again . I'm tired of all those , If i really lost him , I will give up , i'll let him misunderstood me , I don;t wan him to be in my life and spoil his life . he's a great guy , I'm just not that lucky girl who could get his heart easily , He dissevers a better girl then me . I dont dissever anything from god , Cause i'm a looser.. I do really hope he could find a girl that better then me . Cause i might spoil his life if i be wit him . All the best boy, I did fall for you </3

My love song for all time

你問我愛你有多深
我愛你有几分
我的情也真
我的愛也真
月亮代表我的心

你問我愛你有多深
我愛你有几分
我的情不移
我的愛不變
月亮代表我的心

輕輕的一個吻
已經打動我的心
深深的一段情
教我思念到如今

你問我愛你有多深
我愛你有几分

你去想一想
你去看一看
月亮代表我的心

17 march

I told myself not to get moody already , Its not worthy . Stay happy is all i ever wanted , So i decided  to forget everything , forget that i've know you ,forget everything that we've been through , I'm not gonna look back ,for you , not even a single look or a peak . You choose to be like this and so do me , You choose to go by  the hard way , and so do i. I will treat you wit the hard way , you force me ,  i can't do anything , this is the only way i will feel better . I decided you forget you , forget the pass and live a happy me . Don't ask me why , I will not hope or wait , So let's just forget both of us . Okay ? This is the best way <3 Great , i'll set today the best day of my life . I will never ever forget today <3

16 march

I've leave my lappie for more then five days , and i have so much to express here, the only place where is quiet , no voice around , Just me  without anyone . the time where i like to be alone , where i just want to remain quiet , where i just wan to stay away from people, where i just want to shut myself . I'm just kinda emo those days, i never felt like this before , I just can't read myself too .  I'm so sad , i can't even tell how sad am i right now . all i can do is just express here , without telling  anyone. I just can't find a single person to talk to . seriously ,  I just don't know why , everyone changed . I'm like been kicked back to my lonely world again . I'm so scared to be alone seriously,but to show that i'm strong i did something stupid that i never did before .and i regreted doing it . :(( All i can do is just hide behind my blanket and cry in the middle of the night , I'm so left out right now , I'm so blur , I'm trying to pull myself together without anyone's help . but i failed . I FAILED! I can't read mind, Please don't force me to read , I'm tired really tired , can youplease stop treating me like this ? I'm tired and sad. i just don't know what to do right now . its like i just lost a best friend . I did just lost a best friend , I just can't control my treas right now . What can just stop me from thinking ? Please stop all this , i'm tired really very tired . :(( I just need someone to talk to , someone that can be trusted . someone that can just talk away all ly sadness .

I'm so fucking no mood right now ...... Why do you help him ? why ? i just can;t find a think to help you to explain that you're actually not helping him .... My heart hurts like shit , i never felt this way before . I really dont know what to do next . you gave me feeling that tells me not to trust anyone in me life , you  just break your promise do you know that ? You just break it , and still you expect me to force myself to smile in front everybody , I just can;t believe i did that , i felt shamefull , You make me hate you . you make me stop trusting you . how can i trust a person that Help others yet not me . You just make me cry ...

9 March !!

I'm so fucking not in a mood. Quarel wit my mom , answer stupid question , WTF !!!!. I just can't clam myself down . I'm so sick of all the crap , when will this end ???  I fucking mm song you right now( not refering my mom , just to some dork ass small dick !) . why do you care ? why do you care who the fuck i'm going to mix wit, Why your mouth can't talk nicely ? You dump ah ? can't talk properly using your fucking mouth ?  Really can't try to forgive you already . Disappionted in you fuck nonsens ...

8 MRACH :)

I can't believe it , i'm actually enjoying my life wit my friends , We were talking about hanging during the holidays , we planed to hang during friday ,We planed to watch a movi named "Black Swan " then head to De Garden to have lunch or dinner . we even wanted to go K-box before leaving , We even chat what do we wear during the hanguts.
Conversation ...
 Me,Gee Gee,Trong <Swem ,Suet Lee.talking <3


Me: Let's all be naked .
Gee Gee: NO! let's only wear BRA !
Trong : NO ! Don't wear anything , ad just swimg the boops when we are walking
Swem ,Suet lee: laughing.
ME: Doing the  action how to swimg in the mall .
ME,GEE GEE,TRONG ,SWEM,SEUT LEE: laugh like hell in class.


Seriously had lots of lots fun in school today . I wish to have more laughter in school tomorrow . LOL

5 march

I'm moody !!!!!!!

I'M A DOLL TO HIM

23 feb.

What a tired day , I felt so tired today , no matter what i do i still feel tired. I might get sick soon. LOL . Its kinda happy today , I'm 16 yahooooo :) As usual i went to school wit a big smile on my face, i saw my friends and then the smile on my face goes bigger ,I seriously love the gang of my , The CTm , although i'm not from the Ctm , but they are like a true friend to me . Tong, Suet Lee , Rachel , Ee Huey , Evon ,Joanne ,Yi Wen,Yin Mun, Emi . And so do my other gangs as well. Gee Gee, bibi, Lee tong ,Sui Swem ,Pui Yee. and many more. I love them . They make me laugh all the time. I enjoyed being bat po at achool wit them . We are like gossip girl in school. I love to talk bad about ppl, Love finding pretty in school . Make fun of the afternoon section , laugh like crazy woman in class, Eat in calss when teacher was teaching ,Talking about ghost and so on. Really makes my smile when i think back. Thank you so much for being by my side all the time since i started to be single, Actually i felt happier when i'm single,cause i got you guys wit me all the time . XOXO <3

22 Feb . My Big Day .

17 feb .

What a day . I spend my whole afternoon at DEE and i had lots of lots of fun wit the mamamia cast <3 I teached Micheal that Bitchy boy to be sexy. Really laugh my ass off when i see him perform infront me and everyone. LOLOL. I laugh like a mad women ,she talks likes a bitch , Act like a bitch , dance like a bitch. he's even worst then a bitch girl .LOLOL / Its kinda busy these days. LOL hope everything will be good tomorrow <3

16 feb .

Few more hours till 17 . LOL its my best friends father birthday :) Kinda happy ,all though he's not my family or anything. but I'm still kinda happy , cause when i see the smile on my bestie face , my face will automatically put on a smile face , LOL. Its kinda busy today . my brother says that they are coming to see my performance .I'm so freaking happy . seriously freaking happy today . I dance and sing like i never did before. I enjoy singing dancing whenever i feel down.I just cant wait till tomorrow. and sunday !!!! Sunday is our DEE big day. Hahahaha ! i can't wait to see my friends. LOL Love love friend. <3

15 feb

What a day :) . I'm so happy today . Ben , Sun , Yik . came down to Ipoh for a swim , and i brought them to some restaurant to have lunch wit them . LOL. Had fun wit them , walking the whole Dong Gu Ting wit the three of them. We ate chinese food then went KFC for a long talk. Allthough its just a few hours , but its still very fun and save staying wit them. I should had went swimming wit them this morning. LOL They had much fun there and i miss it :( . It too bad . But anyways, This is not the last time the are coming down . they had more chance to come down to ipoh ,. and i Promise to bring them to lost world and go watch movie together . Being wit them is like the happiest thing ever. I felt jealous , i saw them laugh happily . I wan to be like them all the time . its like there is no streess in their life. But my life are way more different then them . How great if i'm one of them ? Stop dreaming. its not going to come true. LOL! I should get back to my studies already . I'm so way behind the chapter , But sometimes i just can't put my head in my studies. i just dont know why. What's wrong wit me ? OMG ! Help me  ! i just wan to have a little fun <3

14 feb 11.39

Half an hour more till 15 feb . I'm kinda moody right now . Seriously ,I found many ppl faking around ma . I really dont understand what . friends wont did this to you . they loved you , but mine are like shits . They find you when they need you , They use you without knowing how hurt you feel after you know that they used you . true friends will not treat you like this. they wont use you to get their things that they wanted . I've been use again and again , And i trusted that person so badly . What will you feel when you found that the person you trusted , doesn't tell you the truth , and use you all the time , Your heart fall in to peaces, All i know is smile to everyone and lie to the world I'm fine I'm okay , but actually , I'm crying in the inside. I still regretted That the moment i fall for you . Really very stupid !I really wish i could bang my head to the wall that moment when i know the truth of you , everything about you , that's what call best friend ? OH NO ! i don;t need this kind of best friend that doesn't tell me everything i wanted to know, and yet you treat me like a 5 year old kid , you tot that i dont know . Seriously , don't look down at me . I'm way much better then you . I will never forget how the way you treat me ,Stopping everyone to tell me the truth ! Found out everything by myself. this is how the way you treat me . Leave me so stupid , going askin everyone whats up wit you . Seriously i felt so fucking stupid whenever i think back for what i did for you and the way you treat me back. Is this the way to treat a girl ? Can you please tell me the truth by yourself ,instead of other ppl telling me !

The mood that you can't have all the time :(

Everyday i woke up , All i wan is just to have a better mood for the rest of my day . I'm happy today , but it doesn't mean that I'm going to be happy tomorrow , or the day after tomorrow . I might felt sad for the rest of my life.No one knows.... Sometimes , you just wan to have a little fun , I'm that type of girl that wants to have fun all the time . I just wan to live happy , have fun , enjoy , ! Not screwed up by fart tads ! I tried to ignore Bitches , Flirts tads, Sluts , lier, They will still come back to me . no matter how hard i try , its still the same. Sometimes , when you feel like expressing you feeling out , you have no one to talk too even thought you have your besties wit you . You dont have the guts to tell or even find someone . Sometimes , being alone is much better then having a bunch of friend . I'm just a girl that who wants to have a little fun, I just wan a guy that loves me , I dont wanna get cheated. It really dont make sense.  Being cheated really feels like a hundred of knife stab trough your heart.I just wan the normal you .

14 feb 5:09 pm Special for you C !

HEY C! do you know that i'm so fucking mad about you right now ? You are still like a kid. Can't you be more mature ? thinking that the whole fucking world will like you as they don't. Please think before you do anything ! Saw one guy like one guy , who the fuck you think you are wor ? How old are you ? Fall in love in this age is stil normal , but like you this kind of attitued really can't forgive .loves to copy, can't you have your own style ? what also copy. ! Grow up la please.

14 feb 5:09 pm

giving no speach ! LOL

13 Feb

Nothing special about today . I woke up early this morning when breakfast wit my family like usual. After that , just staying at home doing ntg , watching video texting. and that's a day . its kinda boring but its better then think stupid stuff that useless. again , its a day that i suddenly think of him again. i tot i had already get over him , I tot that i really did. but at the end , i think of him again . this really sucks like hell. I just wan to life normally , i just wan to be happy for the rest of my life. I just wan a perfect guy that who/s really fall in love wit me . I don't wan a guy that who only know how to find me when he needs me. and when he's not , he probably forgotten my name , I just wan someone to treat me like i'm the only girl in the world . but can he ? or anyone ? i really felt stupid when i think of him all the time . He seriously not worth for me to think or even wait . I can't even believe that i fall for him before , this is like so freaking stupid , its like nonsense. Well, it doesnt mean that the sky fall , I still got some ppl that are willing to listen to my everything , just like Mr.B Ms.G ... Thank you for being by my side all the time . Mr.B a person that knows everything about me , you're like a brother to me , Everytime i see you up sad casue of your girlf , I actually kinda hate her for treating you that way , such a nice guy and she does'nt know how to appecrite . Its kinda waste . hope you wnt regret. Ms.G my bestie ,baby ,lover, and all. the only girl that will know how i feel all the time. I love her so much G!<3

LIFE :)

You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough.

Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.
 
Life without love is like a tree without blossom and fruit.

Life is what happens to you while you’re working for your future.

Start every day off with a smile and get it over with.

A smile is an inexpensive way to change your looks.

A smile takes but a moment, but the memory of it lasts forever

Flirt tards. LOL!

I would fly you to the moon and back if you’ll be . . . if you’ll be my baby.<3

Let make it short and simple, I love you.

You remind me of my next girlfriend.

Did the sun just come out or did you just smile at me?

Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet but nothing compared to you.

Are you tired? Because you’ve been running through my mind all day.

Hi, I’m Mr. Right. Someone said you were looking for me?

You,Me,Us.

Am i your friends? you changed so fast , In this minute you told me that you loved me , and that you were already fall in love wit another girl. And you still wanted to lied and not letting me know that you actually had a girlf. You flirt wit anyone you like. And I'm one of that stupid tarts that get fooled too. I felt so stupid after i knew everything. Why are you like this. I regretted falling for you . How can i still trust you ? how can i tell you everything about me yet you did not ? I really have no idea. I dont even dare to think about it. Just really fed up :(