The mood that you can't have all the time :(

Everyday i woke up , All i wan is just to have a better mood for the rest of my day . I'm happy today , but it doesn't mean that I'm going to be happy tomorrow , or the day after tomorrow . I might felt sad for the rest of my life.No one knows.... Sometimes , you just wan to have a little fun , I'm that type of girl that wants to have fun all the time . I just wan to live happy , have fun , enjoy , ! Not screwed up by fart tads ! I tried to ignore Bitches , Flirts tads, Sluts , lier, They will still come back to me . no matter how hard i try , its still the same. Sometimes , when you feel like expressing you feeling out , you have no one to talk too even thought you have your besties wit you . You dont have the guts to tell or even find someone . Sometimes , being alone is much better then having a bunch of friend . I'm just a girl that who wants to have a little fun, I just wan a guy that loves me , I dont wanna get cheated. It really dont make sense.  Being cheated really feels like a hundred of knife stab trough your heart.I just wan the normal you .