16 march

I've leave my lappie for more then five days , and i have so much to express here, the only place where is quiet , no voice around , Just me  without anyone . the time where i like to be alone , where i just want to remain quiet , where i just wan to stay away from people, where i just want to shut myself . I'm just kinda emo those days, i never felt like this before , I just can't read myself too .  I'm so sad , i can't even tell how sad am i right now . all i can do is just express here , without telling  anyone. I just can't find a single person to talk to . seriously ,  I just don't know why , everyone changed . I'm like been kicked back to my lonely world again . I'm so scared to be alone seriously,but to show that i'm strong i did something stupid that i never did before .and i regreted doing it . :(( All i can do is just hide behind my blanket and cry in the middle of the night , I'm so left out right now , I'm so blur , I'm trying to pull myself together without anyone's help . but i failed . I FAILED! I can't read mind, Please don't force me to read , I'm tired really tired , can youplease stop treating me like this ? I'm tired and sad. i just don't know what to do right now . its like i just lost a best friend . I did just lost a best friend , I just can't control my treas right now . What can just stop me from thinking ? Please stop all this , i'm tired really very tired . :(( I just need someone to talk to , someone that can be trusted . someone that can just talk away all ly sadness .