29 march .

I love him . this is what i can only say . I love him till the max . Shhh. make it soft . LOLOL

The wrong person

Bless the broken road ..

This song had been my love song since I don't know when , but every time i heard this song. It makes me feel better , It's so sweet .


I set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Yes He did

I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

But now I'm just rolling home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

24 25 :) :(

I'm all about him but he's not about me . Opppsss. this is kinda stupid . LOL had a long talk wit my Friend , as so you know its Gee Gee . I told her everything and she introduce me some emo song . Wait a minute why am i so EMO ?? No way , this is so not going to happened on me . He , doesn't like me . HAHAHAHAHAHAH . I knew it , so .... Shut the fuck up , (this is so me) anyway , i talked to her and i told her everything about how i felt and how Sad am I . Yes i know i'm not suppose to be sad or emo , cause this is so so so not me . So i pretend to be happy , that i never care about it at all , I think i've change alot. I've never been so crazy about a *thing* before but this time i failed , I can't believe i did that , anyway i decided to let go everything just likw how i use to say to Gee Gee everytime .LOL . If its yours, it will always be yours , If its not yours, no matter what you do it won;t be yours . so let's trust fade ? Should we ? Wish me luck . <3

22 march

It's a tough day . can be said that I'm in a good moody or can be said that I'm not really in a good mood . I just can't read myself someday , and its totally sucks . Why girls like to make themselves feel cheap ? I really can;t find a reason to explain to myself . Girls today are so so so fucking cheap . they can just sleep wit any guys they wan . WTF . you said kiss on the bed also never mind ,but why do you have to give up your own body , and you said it out by you own fucking mouth ? That's just dog mouth . Yet you still wan to force ppl to apologize ? who the fuck you think you are ? A slut or a whore ? You tot that no one knows you slept wit a guy before so you need to yet like shit in school in front of everyone ? Won;t you feel shame full ? this is so called *dei sei *  Good for you .you wanna argue ? come and find me in class. see who fuck who first ? Its not friends more who wins , its the facts .Do you fucking know what;s the FACTS ? Look through the dictionary . BITCH !

21 march

Hmmmmm.. I don't und why these days i feel like hugging ppl . hahaha I just have no idea. Just feel like hugging anyone ., and it makes me think of Jeffrey , Hahahaha. Wait ! I did not fall him already , just A moment that i suddenly think of him . Its no big deal . How hug gable is he. OMG !! his body . LOL Kinda miss the moment that i hug him . LOL anyways its all pass tense . I'm so not looking back . I'm waiting for my type of guy go apparel, and i'm so gonna accept him . HAHAHAHA . But there's not Cinderella Story in this world , if there is , I'll fucking hope it will happened on me . hahahah. Will it ? Is anyone out there willing to be my prince ? I hope there is . But , STOP DREAMING ! I will not happened,.

20 march :(

This is just too much for me . Fucking too much . I just can't sleep , Can i just bang my head to the wall ? I'm so speechless right now . I can't do anything , just so freaking moody , How can i stop ? Help me please . :'(  The day that i cried for no reason .  this is so unfair , i just wish to live a happy life , And now i end up crying like shit , This is not the ending that i wanted . I wan a happy ending , This ain't happy , I just found myself not smiling much for no reason , This is not me . So not me . you gave me everything that i wanted and now you're taking it back . How can you treat me so unfair ? I Don't wanna go through this again , Once you took it please don;t give me back or  any hope , cause i just can;t handle all this stress ,pressure .. And the worst thing is , I can;t even handle my treas ...

I need to talk to someone !!!! Who is willing to listen whatever shit i say ??? Cant you just fucking stop and listen ? :( I'm so moody . :(

18 MARCH

Practice dancing the whole day . Yes i finally did it . I've stop think about it .. YEAH !!!!! . but ..... *ju hua tai* told me that i'm someone special to him . this kinda make me scare . i just wan to be his friend right now , cause I'm not his type of girl . :((

When i woke up . everything will be back to normal . I promise to stop think , and live my life like how i use to do . Laugh the whole day as hard as i could , I wont let things spoiled my mood. forget the past and fight for what i wan now . I think i loost *ju hua tai * already . He say i change already , Yes sure i've change , cause i'm kinda moody this few days , that way i dont have the mood to talk to him . but i don't wanna tell him , cause i know he will sure ask about what i'm moody for . And i have to explain is again . I'm tired of all those , If i really lost him , I will give up , i'll let him misunderstood me , I don;t wan him to be in my life and spoil his life . he's a great guy , I'm just not that lucky girl who could get his heart easily , He dissevers a better girl then me . I dont dissever anything from god , Cause i'm a looser.. I do really hope he could find a girl that better then me . Cause i might spoil his life if i be wit him . All the best boy, I did fall for you </3

My love song for all time

你問我愛你有多深
我愛你有几分
我的情也真
我的愛也真
月亮代表我的心

你問我愛你有多深
我愛你有几分
我的情不移
我的愛不變
月亮代表我的心

輕輕的一個吻
已經打動我的心
深深的一段情
教我思念到如今

你問我愛你有多深
我愛你有几分

你去想一想
你去看一看
月亮代表我的心

17 march

I told myself not to get moody already , Its not worthy . Stay happy is all i ever wanted , So i decided  to forget everything , forget that i've know you ,forget everything that we've been through , I'm not gonna look back ,for you , not even a single look or a peak . You choose to be like this and so do me , You choose to go by  the hard way , and so do i. I will treat you wit the hard way , you force me ,  i can't do anything , this is the only way i will feel better . I decided you forget you , forget the pass and live a happy me . Don't ask me why , I will not hope or wait , So let's just forget both of us . Okay ? This is the best way <3 Great , i'll set today the best day of my life . I will never ever forget today <3

16 march

I've leave my lappie for more then five days , and i have so much to express here, the only place where is quiet , no voice around , Just me  without anyone . the time where i like to be alone , where i just want to remain quiet , where i just wan to stay away from people, where i just want to shut myself . I'm just kinda emo those days, i never felt like this before , I just can't read myself too .  I'm so sad , i can't even tell how sad am i right now . all i can do is just express here , without telling  anyone. I just can't find a single person to talk to . seriously ,  I just don't know why , everyone changed . I'm like been kicked back to my lonely world again . I'm so scared to be alone seriously,but to show that i'm strong i did something stupid that i never did before .and i regreted doing it . :(( All i can do is just hide behind my blanket and cry in the middle of the night , I'm so left out right now , I'm so blur , I'm trying to pull myself together without anyone's help . but i failed . I FAILED! I can't read mind, Please don't force me to read , I'm tired really tired , can youplease stop treating me like this ? I'm tired and sad. i just don't know what to do right now . its like i just lost a best friend . I did just lost a best friend , I just can't control my treas right now . What can just stop me from thinking ? Please stop all this , i'm tired really very tired . :(( I just need someone to talk to , someone that can be trusted . someone that can just talk away all ly sadness .

I'm so fucking no mood right now ...... Why do you help him ? why ? i just can;t find a think to help you to explain that you're actually not helping him .... My heart hurts like shit , i never felt this way before . I really dont know what to do next . you gave me feeling that tells me not to trust anyone in me life , you  just break your promise do you know that ? You just break it , and still you expect me to force myself to smile in front everybody , I just can;t believe i did that , i felt shamefull , You make me hate you . you make me stop trusting you . how can i trust a person that Help others yet not me . You just make me cry ...

9 March !!

I'm so fucking not in a mood. Quarel wit my mom , answer stupid question , WTF !!!!. I just can't clam myself down . I'm so sick of all the crap , when will this end ???  I fucking mm song you right now( not refering my mom , just to some dork ass small dick !) . why do you care ? why do you care who the fuck i'm going to mix wit, Why your mouth can't talk nicely ? You dump ah ? can't talk properly using your fucking mouth ?  Really can't try to forgive you already . Disappionted in you fuck nonsens ...

8 MRACH :)

I can't believe it , i'm actually enjoying my life wit my friends , We were talking about hanging during the holidays , we planed to hang during friday ,We planed to watch a movi named "Black Swan " then head to De Garden to have lunch or dinner . we even wanted to go K-box before leaving , We even chat what do we wear during the hanguts.
Conversation ...
 Me,Gee Gee,Trong <Swem ,Suet Lee.talking <3


Me: Let's all be naked .
Gee Gee: NO! let's only wear BRA !
Trong : NO ! Don't wear anything , ad just swimg the boops when we are walking
Swem ,Suet lee: laughing.
ME: Doing the  action how to swimg in the mall .
ME,GEE GEE,TRONG ,SWEM,SEUT LEE: laugh like hell in class.


Seriously had lots of lots fun in school today . I wish to have more laughter in school tomorrow . LOL

5 march

I'm moody !!!!!!!