I'M A DOLL TO HIM

23 feb.

What a tired day , I felt so tired today , no matter what i do i still feel tired. I might get sick soon. LOL . Its kinda happy today , I'm 16 yahooooo :) As usual i went to school wit a big smile on my face, i saw my friends and then the smile on my face goes bigger ,I seriously love the gang of my , The CTm , although i'm not from the Ctm , but they are like a true friend to me . Tong, Suet Lee , Rachel , Ee Huey , Evon ,Joanne ,Yi Wen,Yin Mun, Emi . And so do my other gangs as well. Gee Gee, bibi, Lee tong ,Sui Swem ,Pui Yee. and many more. I love them . They make me laugh all the time. I enjoyed being bat po at achool wit them . We are like gossip girl in school. I love to talk bad about ppl, Love finding pretty in school . Make fun of the afternoon section , laugh like crazy woman in class, Eat in calss when teacher was teaching ,Talking about ghost and so on. Really makes my smile when i think back. Thank you so much for being by my side all the time since i started to be single, Actually i felt happier when i'm single,cause i got you guys wit me all the time . XOXO <3

22 Feb . My Big Day .

17 feb .

What a day . I spend my whole afternoon at DEE and i had lots of lots of fun wit the mamamia cast <3 I teached Micheal that Bitchy boy to be sexy. Really laugh my ass off when i see him perform infront me and everyone. LOLOL. I laugh like a mad women ,she talks likes a bitch , Act like a bitch , dance like a bitch. he's even worst then a bitch girl .LOLOL / Its kinda busy these days. LOL hope everything will be good tomorrow <3

16 feb .

Few more hours till 17 . LOL its my best friends father birthday :) Kinda happy ,all though he's not my family or anything. but I'm still kinda happy , cause when i see the smile on my bestie face , my face will automatically put on a smile face , LOL. Its kinda busy today . my brother says that they are coming to see my performance .I'm so freaking happy . seriously freaking happy today . I dance and sing like i never did before. I enjoy singing dancing whenever i feel down.I just cant wait till tomorrow. and sunday !!!! Sunday is our DEE big day. Hahahaha ! i can't wait to see my friends. LOL Love love friend. <3

15 feb

What a day :) . I'm so happy today . Ben , Sun , Yik . came down to Ipoh for a swim , and i brought them to some restaurant to have lunch wit them . LOL. Had fun wit them , walking the whole Dong Gu Ting wit the three of them. We ate chinese food then went KFC for a long talk. Allthough its just a few hours , but its still very fun and save staying wit them. I should had went swimming wit them this morning. LOL They had much fun there and i miss it :( . It too bad . But anyways, This is not the last time the are coming down . they had more chance to come down to ipoh ,. and i Promise to bring them to lost world and go watch movie together . Being wit them is like the happiest thing ever. I felt jealous , i saw them laugh happily . I wan to be like them all the time . its like there is no streess in their life. But my life are way more different then them . How great if i'm one of them ? Stop dreaming. its not going to come true. LOL! I should get back to my studies already . I'm so way behind the chapter , But sometimes i just can't put my head in my studies. i just dont know why. What's wrong wit me ? OMG ! Help me  ! i just wan to have a little fun <3

14 feb 11.39

Half an hour more till 15 feb . I'm kinda moody right now . Seriously ,I found many ppl faking around ma . I really dont understand what . friends wont did this to you . they loved you , but mine are like shits . They find you when they need you , They use you without knowing how hurt you feel after you know that they used you . true friends will not treat you like this. they wont use you to get their things that they wanted . I've been use again and again , And i trusted that person so badly . What will you feel when you found that the person you trusted , doesn't tell you the truth , and use you all the time , Your heart fall in to peaces, All i know is smile to everyone and lie to the world I'm fine I'm okay , but actually , I'm crying in the inside. I still regretted That the moment i fall for you . Really very stupid !I really wish i could bang my head to the wall that moment when i know the truth of you , everything about you , that's what call best friend ? OH NO ! i don;t need this kind of best friend that doesn't tell me everything i wanted to know, and yet you treat me like a 5 year old kid , you tot that i dont know . Seriously , don't look down at me . I'm way much better then you . I will never forget how the way you treat me ,Stopping everyone to tell me the truth ! Found out everything by myself. this is how the way you treat me . Leave me so stupid , going askin everyone whats up wit you . Seriously i felt so fucking stupid whenever i think back for what i did for you and the way you treat me back. Is this the way to treat a girl ? Can you please tell me the truth by yourself ,instead of other ppl telling me !

The mood that you can't have all the time :(

Everyday i woke up , All i wan is just to have a better mood for the rest of my day . I'm happy today , but it doesn't mean that I'm going to be happy tomorrow , or the day after tomorrow . I might felt sad for the rest of my life.No one knows.... Sometimes , you just wan to have a little fun , I'm that type of girl that wants to have fun all the time . I just wan to live happy , have fun , enjoy , ! Not screwed up by fart tads ! I tried to ignore Bitches , Flirts tads, Sluts , lier, They will still come back to me . no matter how hard i try , its still the same. Sometimes , when you feel like expressing you feeling out , you have no one to talk too even thought you have your besties wit you . You dont have the guts to tell or even find someone . Sometimes , being alone is much better then having a bunch of friend . I'm just a girl that who wants to have a little fun, I just wan a guy that loves me , I dont wanna get cheated. It really dont make sense.  Being cheated really feels like a hundred of knife stab trough your heart.I just wan the normal you .

14 feb 5:09 pm Special for you C !

HEY C! do you know that i'm so fucking mad about you right now ? You are still like a kid. Can't you be more mature ? thinking that the whole fucking world will like you as they don't. Please think before you do anything ! Saw one guy like one guy , who the fuck you think you are wor ? How old are you ? Fall in love in this age is stil normal , but like you this kind of attitued really can't forgive .loves to copy, can't you have your own style ? what also copy. ! Grow up la please.

14 feb 5:09 pm

giving no speach ! LOL

13 Feb

Nothing special about today . I woke up early this morning when breakfast wit my family like usual. After that , just staying at home doing ntg , watching video texting. and that's a day . its kinda boring but its better then think stupid stuff that useless. again , its a day that i suddenly think of him again. i tot i had already get over him , I tot that i really did. but at the end , i think of him again . this really sucks like hell. I just wan to life normally , i just wan to be happy for the rest of my life. I just wan a perfect guy that who/s really fall in love wit me . I don't wan a guy that who only know how to find me when he needs me. and when he's not , he probably forgotten my name , I just wan someone to treat me like i'm the only girl in the world . but can he ? or anyone ? i really felt stupid when i think of him all the time . He seriously not worth for me to think or even wait . I can't even believe that i fall for him before , this is like so freaking stupid , its like nonsense. Well, it doesnt mean that the sky fall , I still got some ppl that are willing to listen to my everything , just like Mr.B Ms.G ... Thank you for being by my side all the time . Mr.B a person that knows everything about me , you're like a brother to me , Everytime i see you up sad casue of your girlf , I actually kinda hate her for treating you that way , such a nice guy and she does'nt know how to appecrite . Its kinda waste . hope you wnt regret. Ms.G my bestie ,baby ,lover, and all. the only girl that will know how i feel all the time. I love her so much G!<3

LIFE :)

You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough.

Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.
 
Life without love is like a tree without blossom and fruit.

Life is what happens to you while you’re working for your future.

Start every day off with a smile and get it over with.

A smile is an inexpensive way to change your looks.

A smile takes but a moment, but the memory of it lasts forever

Flirt tards. LOL!

I would fly you to the moon and back if you’ll be . . . if you’ll be my baby.<3

Let make it short and simple, I love you.

You remind me of my next girlfriend.

Did the sun just come out or did you just smile at me?

Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet but nothing compared to you.

Are you tired? Because you’ve been running through my mind all day.

Hi, I’m Mr. Right. Someone said you were looking for me?

You,Me,Us.

Am i your friends? you changed so fast , In this minute you told me that you loved me , and that you were already fall in love wit another girl. And you still wanted to lied and not letting me know that you actually had a girlf. You flirt wit anyone you like. And I'm one of that stupid tarts that get fooled too. I felt so stupid after i knew everything. Why are you like this. I regretted falling for you . How can i still trust you ? how can i tell you everything about me yet you did not ? I really have no idea. I dont even dare to think about it. Just really fed up :(