I'M A DOLL TO HIM

23 feb.

What a tired day , I felt so tired today , no matter what i do i still feel tired. I might get sick soon. LOL . Its kinda happy today , I'm 16 yahooooo :) As usual i went to school wit a big smile on my face, i saw my friends and then the smile on my face goes bigger ,I seriously love the gang of my , The CTm , although i'm not from the Ctm , but they are like a true friend to me . Tong, Suet Lee , Rachel , Ee Huey , Evon ,Joanne ,Yi Wen,Yin Mun, Emi . And so do my other gangs as well. Gee Gee, bibi, Lee tong ,Sui Swem ,Pui Yee. and many more. I love them . They make me laugh all the time. I enjoyed being bat po at achool wit them . We are like gossip girl in school. I love to talk bad about ppl, Love finding pretty in school . Make fun of the afternoon section , laugh like crazy woman in class, Eat in calss when teacher was teaching ,Talking about ghost and so on. Really makes my smile when i think back. Thank you so much for being by my side all the time since i started to be single, Actually i felt happier when i'm single,cause i got you guys wit me all the time . XOXO <3

22 Feb . My Big Day .

17 feb .

What a day . I spend my whole afternoon at DEE and i had lots of lots of fun wit the mamamia cast <3 I teached Micheal that Bitchy boy to be sexy. Really laugh my ass off when i see him perform infront me and everyone. LOLOL. I laugh like a mad women ,she talks likes a bitch , Act like a bitch , dance like a bitch. he's even worst then a bitch girl .LOLOL / Its kinda busy these days. LOL hope everything will be good tomorrow <3

16 feb .

Few more hours till 17 . LOL its my best friends father birthday :) Kinda happy ,all though he's not my family or anything. but I'm still kinda happy , cause when i see the smile on my bestie face , my face will automatically put on a smile face , LOL. Its kinda busy today . my brother says that they are coming to see my performance .I'm so freaking happy . seriously freaking happy today . I dance and sing like i never did before. I enjoy singing dancing whenever i feel down.I just cant wait till tomorrow. and sunday !!!! Sunday is our DEE big day. Hahahaha ! i can't wait to see my friends. LOL Love love friend. <3

15 feb

What a day :) . I'm so happy today . Ben , Sun , Yik . came down to Ipoh for a swim , and i brought them to some restaurant to have lunch wit them . LOL. Had fun wit them , walking the whole Dong Gu Ting wit the three of them. We ate chinese food then went KFC for a long talk. Allthough its just a few hours , but its still very fun and save staying wit them. I should had went swimming wit them this morning. LOL They had much fun there and i miss it :( . It too bad . But anyways, This is not the last time the are coming down . they had more chance to come down to ipoh ,. and i Promise to bring them to lost world and go watch movie together . Being wit them is like the happiest thing ever. I felt jealous , i saw them laugh happily . I wan to be like them all the time . its like there is no streess in their life. But my life are way more different then them . How great if i'm one of them ? Stop dreaming. its not going to come true. LOL! I should get back to my studies already . I'm so way behind the chapter , But sometimes i just can't put my head in my studies. i just dont know why. What's wrong wit me ? OMG ! Help me  ! i just wan to have a little fun <3

14 feb 11.39

Half an hour more till 15 feb . I'm kinda moody right now . Seriously ,I found many ppl faking around ma . I really dont understand what . friends wont did this to you . they loved you , but mine are like shits . They find you when they need you , They use you without knowing how hurt you feel after you know that they used you . true friends will not treat you like this. they wont use you to get their things that they wanted . I've been use again and again , And i trusted that person so badly . What will you feel when you found that the person you trusted , doesn't tell you the truth , and use you all the time , Your heart fall in to peaces, All i know is smile to everyone and lie to the world I'm fine I'm okay , but actually , I'm crying in the inside. I still regretted That the moment i fall for you . Really very stupid !I really wish i could bang my head to the wall that moment when i know the truth of you , everything about you , that's what call best friend ? OH NO ! i don;t need this kind of best friend that doesn't tell me everything i wanted to know, and yet you treat me like a 5 year old kid , you tot that i dont know . Seriously , don't look down at me . I'm way much better then you . I will never forget how the way you treat me ,Stopping everyone to tell me the truth ! Found out everything by myself. this is how the way you treat me . Leave me so stupid , going askin everyone whats up wit you . Seriously i felt so fucking stupid whenever i think back for what i did for you and the way you treat me back. Is this the way to treat a girl ? Can you please tell me the truth by yourself ,instead of other ppl telling me !